3 months

9-25-2009

Tomorrow will be 3 months since God called mom home. At times it still seems like yesterday, and others, it seems like forever.
I am slowly realizing just how tired I was from taking care of mom, but I would do it all again tomorrow.
I think of mom often, and at times think, I need to tell her this or that, then remember she is not here to tell. I know she would have loved Mazee, and I think Mazee would have been a perfect lap dog and companion for mom.
Sometimes, I relive the day mom died in my mind. The part where the last thing she said to me was "Help me." I can still see her sitting there, saying help me, but not seeming to be in any pain. I believe god gave her that gift, of not feeling to much pain, of wrapping her in His loving arms, as He took her to be with Him.
We've celebrated birthdays and been to the county fair without mom, and it is not quite the same, but each time, it becomes a little easier. I have an awesome family and friends, who support me thru this time.
Some days I can picture mom in my mind very clearly. For some reason one of the most vivid memories is of mom in a pair of brown slacks, and a blue short sleeved sweatshirt. She is smiling and in the kitchen.
I miss moms cooking.........her fried chicken and scalloped potatoes. her meat loaf...cause mine never tastes quite like hers :) and her cherry cream pie.........
I don't cry every time I think or speak of mom now, but i still cry enough :)

I love her, I miss her, I can't wait to see her again someday. I'm so glad that I have the assurance of Jesus free gift of salvation, so I know that I will see mom, dad and LeAnn, and Cathy and MayAnn and others again someday.

If you don't know my Jesus, I'd be happy to introduce you to Him.