7-17-09
Three weeks ago today,mom went home to meet Jesus. In my head it has been 3 weeks, in my heart it seems forever.
I miss her as much now as ever. I miss coming home to hear
"what's for supper? I'm hungry"
"where's my cheeseburger and sprite?"
"help me"...........the words I came to almost hate are the words I miss the most.
I have been journaling in a notebook, and one of these days I will post it all. i am going to transfer a couple notes from my facebook page to here.
My head is ready to work on moms room, but my heart will not let me sort thru much yet. I am ready to move around the furniture, so I can get the big TV in there and out of the living room, which will become the dining/sitting room. I want a nice room to welcome guests/visitors. One where the TV is not staring at you, where you can sit and eat, or sit and visit.
Sometimes when I look at moms picture, it seems almost as if she is still sitting in her recliner, talking to me, or ready to nap.
Her favorite Bible verse, "Be still and know that I am God", is comign to mean more to me. I find that in the stillness and quietness we can find a closer peace with God. It is hard to be still and wait on Him, in His infinte wisdom, but I am learning
On another subject. My new baby Mazee is doinggreat. A little gunshy at times of new and strange noises. She and gracie are playign together and she brings me joy. She found her first roll of toilet paper last night. It was about half a roll, and she had a blast tearing it up. Yes, I know it makes a mess, but it made me laugh, and I needed that.
thank you to all who have conitnued to uphold me in prayer. It is by those prayers that I make it thru each day.
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Hi, Sharon - still praying for you. Grieving takes more time for some; less for others. God knows YOU and is there with you throughout your grieving no matter how long it takes. I'm not sure we ever "get over it" completely (I speak here from experience) - but it gets easier. Easier to think of the ones you've lost to death without that heavy, heavy sadness - easier to think about the happy times you've had with them, the funny times. Easier to believe that they would want us to go on living and to be happy, in spite of the sadness of their deaths. Love you!
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