I will start with this post I recently shared on facebook.  In our grief of losing a loved one, I have learned that we never quite know what will cause a tear to roll down our cheek, or a smile to cross our face, or laughter to come from our lips.    Or when.  A week, a year, 30 months, 5 years, when that memory will come back to light and remind us of the precious one we have lost.  A sign, a picture, a friend, a Bible verse, a song,  might be the trigger to bringing up the memory. Whatever it is, cherish those memories and  remember how loved you were.


The Little Green Cup
It is just an ordinary green cup. Tupperware. Kid size. It holds 11 pills, mainly vitamins.
For almost 7 years it sat quietly on the bathroom shelf. Never touched. Never moved.
Now it sits on the vanity in my bedroom. Still holding those same 11 pills.
One dust bunny removed. The pills are aged, cracked, beginning to disassemble.
Yet still it sits.
My hand held it recently. Held it over the trash can. Staring at the pills, I tried to tip it and let the pills roll in to the trash. My hand would not move. My eyes clouded with tears. I could not let go, of a simple green cup with 11 pills.
The last pills for mom, before Jesus took her home.
I have let go of the pill bottles …old vitamins, prescripts….. I have trashed papers, given away her clothes, or turned her clothes into quilts for family. But, for some insane reason, I cannot let go of a green cup with 11 pills.
I have berated myself, called myself crazy, I have analyzed myself, argued with myself and I have cried over this one silly green cup with 11 pills.
Some day, I will be able to let go, but for now, that one green cup with 11 pills sits quietly on my vanity, to be seen by me each morning as I prepare for the day.
It has become a reminder of the 2nd greatest gift I have ever been given.
Jesus saving me was the greatest gift.
God giving me the mom and dad he chose for me was the 2nd greatest gift. The green cup sits as a reminder of who I am, where I came from, and the legacy I have been given to follow and fulfill.
Some day, the little green cup will be emptied, and washed and put into the cupboard.
Someday, but not today.