It has been a week of good happenings. Mom has really done well this week,until this evening, when the "help me's" took over again. It has been wonderful to actually carry on a bit of a conversation with her, rather than always hearing the yes or now answers and the help me!
I am exhausted tonight, after a week of late nights, and my hip hurting (I need to make another trip to the chiropractor) and tonight I was very tired when mom started with the Help ME!'s. I wanted to scream at her........STOP......but instead I forever repeated "you are okay".........even though I "sounded" calm, I was irritated on the inside.
Which leads me to all the comments or responses I have received this week. thank you so much, everyone, for encouraging me, for lifting mom and I up in prayer, for saying I have a lot of patience. I don't feel some days like I have much patience at all. some days, especially when I am tired, I would like to "throw in the towel", but I know mom still needs me.
Sometimes it is hard, when I look back through old pictures, and see the "mom" she once was. The hard worker, the woman of much faith, the loving wife, mother, grandmother, the giver, etc etc etc. I want that mom back!!!!!!!!! But, I know that can't be. I want the mom back who could always pick a chicken faster than me.....even when she was 60. the mom who could out work me when she was 60 and I was 32. Mom was from the "old school".
I wouldn't trade my mom for any other in the world. God chose her for me, long before even time began, knowing even then that someday it would be "my turn" to take care of mom.
I am blessed. I may be stressed at times, but I am always blessed, because I have a wonderful mom, who loved me, raised me to believe that God will make a way...........for all things. and I had a wonderful dad, too, who is now with Jesus!
Ephesians 2:10 For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
God Bless each of you!
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